Equal money and my day

Greetings,
It’s dark outside. What they call night. I am sitting here for my usual time of self-support.
Today I had fucking troubles to get up and apply myself. So I simply got up after a while and started to apply self-forgiveness just to snap out of that state of energy. It didn’t go very well and I was much caught in this depressive state of being. Though I caught some cool points in my self-forgiveness.
Anyway then I went out to paint for my mother. Which I felt a little angry that i had to do. I remember feeling my face contorting as my mother asked me to do that. But I realized that I had to do it. It was common sense in that moment to paint. And that helped to snap out of my experience. I really get caught in these experiences of depression when I am sitting to much infront of the computer. And I have not contact with the outside world. Like people, and stuff like that.
So after that I went into town. I was going to fix some things and buy some thins. I suprised myself with realizing that i was stable like a rock. At least until I had been in town for a while. Then stuff started to come up. But I mean, in comparison to other times. I really feel like I have transcended some major fears. And I have no idea how it’s been done. I mean it’s finally here now. A sense of stability and calm in every moment. And it’s not that hard anymore to stop myself. I have found a stability and serenity in my self-application. Taking point after point and working them through.
So it’s been a quite changable day. Recently I have worked a lot on stopping the fame thoughts. Because they have really bothered me so much. Today I have felt pretty much free from many of those thoughts. That are really coming up as dreams and projections of me making music. Or me doing something in relation to music. Or me planning to do something with music. So i’ve begun to really map out all those thoughts and I have worked on getting them all down with my self-forgiveness so I want participate in them more. It’s like I have been making my mind physical and seeable. And that is assisting me to stop and change myself.
I’ve been feeling quite bored. Or non-actionable today. I have really nothing to spend my time upon that is so called important. I think I am still holding on to the saviour syndrome of wanting to be important and have some bigs thing to do. Like become big in various ways. And when I just sit and do nothing some days. It’s like. I can’t do that anymore. I almost feel guilty for sitting down and doing nothing. I’ve, or I am existing in a constant self-movement usually. Always doing things and into things.
The thing I have also caught myself thinking about today is the high-school test. The fucking test is so fucking boring. And everytime I sit down to do it I can get so frustrated. And it’s not like I want to become frustrated. It’s like simply to way that the questions are asked, that is what is making me angry. Though it must be done. It’s my ticket into the lawyer education. I am pretty certain that I will be able to pull it off now. By the time of the test. Which is in about a years time I will have gotten so much practice on all the subjects. On the way that the questions are asked and answers, that I will basically not be able to fail. I will practice myself at real time test situations also. To get a sense of the time. And also to have a sense on how to work with the tests and how to use my ruler.
I am a bit fearful almost that I will slack of in my discipline and then forget about me and becoming a lawyer. Maybe because I have done so before. I don’t know. But somedays I feel like i have studied to little. Like today I almost feel like that. Strange words I use. It’s like I am poking inside to find something that isn’t there really.
Anyway. The test is not enjoyable and I find it a waste of time. Though it’s something that I must waste my time on to be able to get somewhere. I must learn bullshit things. Words that nobody use anymore. What is the reason for such a thing?
Anyway. Other than that I have not done so very much today. And when it comes to writing here there isn’t that much I feel to write about. Though I now this is the unconcious mind as a manifested barrier. So I apply myself and push through and reach for self-intimacy.
Something I have noticed is fear when I go down to be in the kitchen. It’s like amazing how much less fear there is now than there was before. And I am not reacting to my mother as I did before. I noticed that today as I got home. And I had bought something new. And my mother asked me if I had money for it. And I said yes. And then there was something else that was told. And it was usually in such a situation that I would react physically. Yet, this time I didn’t react at all. And it was cool that I didn’t.
I am not being with my family a lot. Today I spoke with my dad about the equal money system. I noticed some funny things about me. I noticed that I didn’t want to say how many there was involved with the party to my dad. Because I felt there was to few. And I also felt like my dad was like trying to downgrade the political party by finding faults in it. And things that didn’t match up to regular parties. I know it’s me that is reaction to it. And that I am responsible. But it was interessting to see. I don’t fear my dad as much as I did before. I don’t know why either. In a moment fear is gone.
So when I am with my father and in such situations I don’t have anymore so much pre-concieved ideas about what is right and what is wrong. I can talk with my father about pretty much anything. There is not like I am not able to debate, and argument anymore. I don’t have any ideas anymore.
I just remembered that my sister said something in that moment as I speaked with my dad about how she didn’t want me to fight with my dad. I remember i reacted to that word and got kind of confused, and started to question myself if I actually was fighting or not. But I got over it and decided to go through with the moment and simply speak.
I remember that I got both my sister and father against me. My father thought that the equal life foundation was communism. It wasn’t communism but I got quiet like, put up against the wall when he said that. When he said that in communism they placed prisoners into prisons. Or citizens into prison. And then he compared my system with that. I told him that our system would be nothing like that. And it won’t be nothing like that. Communism was still based upon control. And the masses serving one leader. Our system will raise individuality, and individial choice.
Because all will be equal creators and equal gods. Simply through giving all equal money all will be equally able to what they want. Nobody will have more money than another. That is one of the key points. And the leaders are not going to force anyone to think, believe, or do something he doesn’t want to do. There will be laws. But laws will be placed to stop abuse from occuring. It won’t place conditions upon citizens and individuals. It will simply create consequences for actions of abuse. So that all abuse is stopped.
But other than that. Everyone will be pretty much free. And if they decide to participate in the labour system . Then they will take on responsibility.
I am here. Oh, sub4sub. That is the one last action I have to do today.
Creating this new system is quite hard because there is so much to be consisered of how things should work and how things should be put into place. So much of the human-nature must be considered for this to work. Outflows must be considered, implications. But it must be done. And this the manifesto I am currently writing.
So what is more nessecary to look at here in this moment in terms of this new money system? How the implementation is going to take place? What i see is that firstly a equal money system must get into place. This equal money system can exist at the same time as all other. As our normal system still exist. So our normal system will still exist. And this is what will give you the chance to buy luxuaries. The first thing that comes into this world is the equal money. And all wares that are going to be sold for the E money will be sold for the E money. Now this will create havoc in the economy in some ways.
Who will be affected by this. If we still hold on to the old system. People will still need to make profit. And if we start to put their wares on sale for equality credits they won’t get any profit at all. A solution might be in the beginning. That they are simply given the same amount of equality credits spent. Back into normal credits. So there is no real difference. The economy doesn’t change in anyway. Everyone keep their money as they have. But a base sum is created for everyone. A base sum that is not able to be depleted. And through this more money will come into circulation in the world. And there will be more work for everyone. And more profit to be made.
As everyone get the base sum. And with this base sum they can buy all the basic nessicities of life.
Now what must be created is the labour system. What I just thought about now is how to direct the labour system. The labour system must be the heart of the world. The heart of the human community. All that is given will be given through the labour system. And the labour system would then most effectively be split into several parts where each part has a certain responsibility towards society as a whole. Has a certain agenda to follow.
The leaders for these departments are not voted, or they are voted, but they also go through training, and they are always looked at. Now these different parts of the labour system have their own particular agenda that they must fulfill.
The is the
Health care- department
Transport and infrastructure- department
Housing and construction- department
Food and water- department
Entertainment- department
Education- department
Law- department
Energy- department
Industry and production- department
Distribution- department

And that is basically what society consist of. All of these departments answer for a part of society. And as a worker within these departments you get educated. You learn what it is that you do. Why you do what you do. And how you are to do what you are going to do. You can still start your own bransch and your own individual shops, industries, yet you are within one of these branches. You work become and exists within one of these branches. And if you decide to join into the labour system you join one of these branches.
It is important to have one bransch so that the same routines are followed everywhere. To ensure that there is a high quality in everything. If you decide to start your own medical institution. You will do so within the bransch of health care. And through this bransch you will get direction. As what is needed to be done. And what is not needed to be done.
Man it’s quite fucking hard to design this system. I want everyone to have the ability to do what they want to do without any control. I don’t want enormous heaps of paper, and enermous organisations only concerned with administration. I want the interaction to be fluid and effortless.
The reason for dividing all work within branches of departments is because that way all the various branches will be able to be given direction. There must be a head of the body. A head- department. This head- department is voted. These people are trained to see what is best for all. Trained to stand as and by principle and not fuck around. It’s their purpose to direct these branches into the direction of what is best for all. This bransch must be the head that is see’s what must be done for the body as a whole. What must be considered and done for the body for the body to function properly. It’s the organizer of all efforts.
And how will the body know what is needed? How will the head know what is needed to be done for the body? It will listen to the various different body parts and hear what they are saying. These branches will have direct contact with the market. The labour going on.
All these labourers will have experiences within their branches. A distributor in the distribution department might realize that there is one product produced that nobody ever buys. And thus he sends this message to the head. Which gives the direction to the production and industry department to stop producing this.
And when the medical department need a new medicine. They tell this to the head. And the head gives direction to the industry department of creating this new medicin. Thus all labour that is done is done for a purpose. The purpose is what is best for all. And my last idea of giving all personal free-choice won’t be able to pull through.
Thus how does the health-care department know what is must do. The healt-care departments actions is stipulated by the head. The head giving the principle. And then the health-care department giving feedback on how this principle is working.
So freelabour and starting your own labour will be quite difficult. Because if such is allow there will be no organisation. For example if you are a worker. Or you want to become a worker. And you decide to work for the health-care department. Now it’s up to them to firstly give you a suggestion of what you can do. Based upon what is needed for the health-care department to effectively be able to do what is best for all. And as such labour will be given out.
You won’t anymore give directions to yourself. Because you won’t know what is needed to be done.
Though obviously there are certain things that are stupid with this. The local shops. Like i got my car repaired today. How would that function in this system? The car shop will be under the maintaince department. But how would it function? How would the head know that such a car shop is needed in that area. Obviously people would call to the head and say that. Hey we need a shop in this area that repair cars. The head would then give direction to the specific department which would be. Maintaince and repair- department. Or industry and production department. The head saying that. We have people in this area that want there to be a shop here. Can you please arrange this. And thus the industry and production department say’s, yes indeed we are able to do such. And then the department contacts the various people and departments needed to set up a shop in this area. Many things are needed to be taken into consideration for only one shop to function effectively. A building must be up. Energy supplied. Electricians must go there to fix the energy. All these calls must be able to simply done. The interaction between the different departments must be simply and flawless. There might not even be nessecary to have departments. But it makes it more simply to have departments. That is so the head can more easily give instructions to it’s various parts of what is need to be done.
But for example the industry departments decideds to put up a car shop. It contacts the housing and construction department. We must have a shop set up here can you arrange this. And the deparment of housing and construction say’s. Oh yes we can. And then they set it up.
Then the industry department contact the distrubution department. Hello guys, we need some guys that can help us with delivery to this place. Is this possible to be arranged. Oh yes it is. And so the store is up and running. As the different parts are effectively communicating with each-other.
Might even be more effective if the head control all this. So that all communication go through the head. And the head is the organizer and over-seer. So the industry department simply say’s, yes we are able to set up a shop here. Or the industry doesn’t even need to know that the shop is going to be set up. The head simply contacts the building department and say’s. Hey guys, we need a building here. It’s going to be used as a blah. Okay cool. And then, hey guys we need a car-mechanic to this place. Okay.
And then the car-mechanic contacts the head to get the things he needs to his. The head being the overseer and the organizer. Seeing all various different components interacting and creating society. And directing it effectively for everyones pleasure. The head is the department that takes care of all direction. A quite massive job. It’s the listener to the people and the director between the various different components that make up the society.
So no free work is able. All work is directed through these departments. And obviously you as a worker are able to direct your work-place. Through contact with the head. You give your wishes and your wants. And the head then evaluates and see’s what can be done depending on all the other points being in motions. Simply, very simple.