Memory forgiveness support:

Memory forgiveness support:
1. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define peace and calm as lying outisde on the grass
2. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define nature and a clear blue sky as perfection, as presence and earthed
3. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create a snapshot of myself lying on the grass looking at a spider, feeling the wind blowing in my face and the sun shining on my skin, and i forgive myself that i have accepted adn allowed myself to define this moment according to words such as presence, calm. Peace
4. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define warm winds stroking my skin as peace
5. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel more happy and content with myself on days when the sun is shining and the sky is clear blue
6. I forgive myself that i have accepted adn allowed myself to re-live this moment of lying in the grass and feeling the particular way i felt that day
7. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to feel the grass on my body and sun shinging on my skin
8. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to take this moment and desire to re-live, and define my entire experience as a child according to this memory
9. I forgive myself that i have accepted adn allowed myself to feel calm and happy each time i hear the wind blowing in a leaf tree
10. I forgive myself htat i have accepted and allowed myself to define the memory of me lying on the grass, seeing the sun and the sky, as a happiness
11. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel calm and peaceful because of how the enviroment was existing at that moment
12. I forgive myself that i have accepted adn allowed myself to desire to experience these same pictures again, in order to give me the same experience i had back then
13. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to have a experience that is exactly the same as the experience i had when i grew up and i was lying in the grass and the sun was shining, and the wind was softly blowing, and a spider was walking infront me
14. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the words earthed, presence, grounded to a picture and a memory of my past
15. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be a child again so that i can go back to this memory and re-experience it
16. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to become small again, and not have any responsibilities, so that i can lie and experience nature and that which is around me undisturbed
17. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel and believe that i have missed nature, that i have not the same ability now the experience that which is around as i had when i grew up as a child
18. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define lying outside, on the grass, with a blue sky, and wind, and warmth as being the peak of my existence
19. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel uncomfortable and experience emotions when i think about alexander
20. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be afraid of being in alexanders house because the parents where so direct, and stressed, and there was so much chatter and fast way of moving
21. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be afraid of the directness that alexanders parents expressed
22. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be afraid of how intelligent alexanders parents seemed
23. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be afraid of how rich alexanders parents seemed
24. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be afraid of being in alexanders house, because there was all these rules of what i could do and what i couldn’t do
25. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become afraid of being with alexander in alexanders house, because i felt so constricted, that i couldn’t touch or feel anything, because alexnader didn’t want me to do that
26. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be afraid of being in alexanders house, in fear tha ti might do something that would make the inhabitants of this house angry, through breaking any of the rules i was given
27. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel distressed in alexanders house because i felt disturbed by the fact that there was always conflict near
28. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myslef to fear conflict and hazzle
29. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear doing something in alexanders house that might make someone angry and because of that throw me out
30. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel unwelcome, to feel threatened in alexanders house
31. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel like i am entering enemy territorry in which i am not allowed to go when i am in alexanders house
32. I forgive myself that i ahve accepted adn allowed myself to connect being in someone elses house as being in enemy territorry, as being in a place where i have no right to be, and no right to express mysefl
33. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i don’t have any right to express myself in alexanders house
34. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear expressing myself in alexanders house in fear that people would get angry at me and scream at me the way they screamed at alexander
35. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear when alexander and his mom and dad fought with each other
36. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear how grown up and mature alexander was in comparison to me
37. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that maturity which alexanders parents treated him with
38. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear how much responsibility and direction alexander showed in his behaviour when he took me home to his house
39. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel mistreated by my mother
40. I forgive myslef that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel mistreated and ignored by my mother in my entire life
41. I forgive myself that i have accepted adn allowed myself to feel like my mother have used me as a puppet for her own satisfaction in my entire life
42. I forgie myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be angry at my mother that she has come and disturbed me when i have played and had fun with myself
43. I forgive myslef that i ahve accepted and allowed myself to be angry that my mother would come and do things towards me when i had fun with myself
44. I forgivem yself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel like my mother has always been out to push me down and mistreat me
45. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that my mother would come to me when i was playing and enjoying myself in fear that i would be hit
46. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear being hit by mother
47. I forgive myslef that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that my mother would become outraged and express herself violentely towards me when i was sitting by myself, enjoying myself and playing with myself
48. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that i would have done something that i wasn’t aware of, that my mother was angry at, and that my mother now was coming to punsih me for
49. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear being physically punished, physically hit by my mother
50. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be angry at my mother, and hate my mother for the times when she have hit me
51. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel mistreated, to feel sad and helpless towards my mother
52. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear playing infront of my mother in fear that she would come and scream at me, or hit me,
53. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear being with my parents in fear that they where going to come and scream at me, hit me, when i was having fun with myself
54. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear relaxing and letting go and enjoying myself, in fear that my parents would take me by suprise and be angry, scream or hit me without me being able to defend myself
55. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that my mother would come up from behind me and scream at me or destroy my game
56. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear building or playing when my parents was around in fear that they would come up towards me and destroy my game and scream at me
57. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel like my mother has always been against me, and always used me to feel better about herself
58. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel taken for granted by my mother
59. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel like my mother have used and seen me as a puppet in her entire life
60. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel like my mother never took me or what i expeirenced seriously
61. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myslef to feel unsupported and simply worked against by my mother my entire life
62. I forgive myslef that i have accepted nad allowed myself to be angry at my mother that i couldn’t share anything of myself with her
63. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be angry at my mother that my mother would become angry all the time and scream and yell
64. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel mistreated by my mother and be angry at my mother that i have lost my unconditional self-expression
65. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame my mother and be angry at my mother that i have lost my unconditional self-expression which i lived as a child
66. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel mistreated by my mother and desire to revenge upon my mother to get back at her, for destroying me as unconditional self-expression
67. I forgive myself taht i have accepted and allowed myself to feel destroyed and humiliated by my mother
68. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel like it is my mothers fault that my entire life has been a struggle
69. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be angry at my mother that my mother always had things to complain about with me
70. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel like my mother have only used me as a way to feel happy and good about herself
71. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be angry that i never felt treated as an equal by my mother
72. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be angry that my mother was always wanting to sit on top of me
73. I forgive myself that i have accepted and llowed myself to feel mistreated anda ngry because my mother always wanted to have to upper hand on me
74. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myslef to blame my mother for being born into hell
75. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame and be angry at my parents for being born into this world and into this family
76. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to hate and dislike my mother each time she is angry
77. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear each time my mother walks up the stairs in fear that she is going to come in to my room and wreac havoc upon my life
78. I forgive myself that i have accepted and alowed myself to believe that my mother can wreac havoc upon my life and upon without my permission
79. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to miss my old friends
80. I forgive myself taht i have accepted and allowed myself to miss driving around on my scooter on the roads, driving to all kinds of lakes and bathing there
81. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to miss being with my friends, screaming and shouting and playing around with my friends
82. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to miss henrik which i considered to be my best friend
83. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to miss socializing and spending time with henrik
84. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myslef to miss having someone that i can share everything of myself towards
85. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to miss the moments of unconditional enjoyment and laughter together with henrik, basse, and jerry
86. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to miss the summerdays when me and henrik where laughing and running around
87. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to miss my youth
88. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to live as a youth again only the re-expereicne that feeling of having very close friends
89. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to feel like i have very close friends, to which i share everything and express myself totally without any inhibitions
90. I forgive myself that i ahve accepted and allowed myself to remember that day by the lake, when the sun stood high in the sky, and the grass was green, and i was having fun with my friends
91. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be apart of a group of people
92. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be a aprt of a group of people that i can call friends with which i can experience a connetion
93. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to experience a connection and a close intimate bond with a male man
94. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be able to lie up late at night and discuss and lie matters with my friends
95. I forgive myself taht i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to have bonds with people that are unbreakable, bonds of total trust and intimacy
96. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to have someone with which i can share all my interests, with which i can do all the stuff that i enjoy to do
97. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to miss my friends at junirio school
98. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to miss that feeling of comfort, of bonding that i felt with my friends
99. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to miss the feeling of being happy with my friends, happy and having fun, doing the things that i liked to do without any inhibition
100. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to long back to the time of summer, when i had my scooter, and when i could drive around with my friends, and when i could do whatever it was that i wanted
101. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to miss the joyous moments with my friends when i was young, and there was no sense of responsibility, no sense of wanting to go anywhere or become anything
102. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to miss feeling like i am a part of a group of people that really like me, and enjoy me, and want me to be a part of their group
103. I forgive myself that i have accepted nad allowed myself to miss running into the water and screaming, while seeing my friends doing the same thing, and then simply having so much fun with my friends in the water
104. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to go back to that moment of unconditional enjoyment with everything around, as i was expressing myself simply ehre with water, and laughter and fun
105. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist within a depression that i can’t return to that time
106. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist within a sadness and unfulfillment that i can’t turn back the time and experience those moments yet again
107. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to have bonding with people, where i simply feel one with people, where i feel like there is no me, and that i can simply relax and let go into the hand of another
108. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to miss being able to feel like i have a true friend
109. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to miss being able to call to someone during the day and decide to do something with that person
110. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to miss having henrik as a friend that i could come to and be with at any point during the day or night
111. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become happy when i get hugged
112. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel depressed, sad and lonely while i was at the daycare
113. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad and depressed and lonely until someone hugged me
114. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel afraid of being at the daycare alone
115. I forgive myself htat i have accepted and allowed myself to dislike being with the teachers at the daycare
116. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to dislike being locked into the daycare and being under the supervision of parents
117. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel afraid of being hugged by someone
118. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel abused and lonely and pushed away at the daycare
119. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel like nobody is caring about me at the daycare
120. I forgive myself that i have acepted and allowed myself to become happy, and experience myself finally being seen, finally having someone to trust when i got hugged by someone
121. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel afraid and cry when my parents left me at the daycare
122. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad towards being alone at the daycare and being forced to sleep at the daycare when i didn’t want to sleep
123. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel lonely at the daycare, and feel like i have nothing to be with and nothing to speak to and nothing to be with
124. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel lonley because i was the only one that spoke my dialect of speech
125. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel lonely and afraid because people was out to abuse and hurt me due to how i spoke
126. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel rejected by people when i spoke and when i luaghed
127. I forgive myself that i have acepted and allowed myself to feel sad, and only be able to feel happy again when someobdy hugged me
128. I forgive myself that i didn’t allow myself to hug myself and support myself
129. I forgive myself that i haven’t allowed myself to stand up towards abuse and stop abuse
130. I forgive myself that i didn’t allow myself to stand up and stop abuse and not allow myself to be abused by another
131. I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to be abused and bullied by another
132. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear standing up and stopping abuse and stopping myself from being bullied and abused by another tthrough being self-assertive and saying what i will allow and what i won’t allow
133. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel assured and secure when my mother comes to my room to hear how i am feeling
134. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want my mother to care for me and ask me how i feel
135. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel assured and secure when someobdy asks me how i feel
136. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be taken care of and loved by my mother
137. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire my mother to pity me when i am sick
138. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire my mother to hold me and tell me that i am fine and that nothing will hurt me
139. I forgive myself that i ahve accepted and allowed myself to desire to wish my mother to be regretful and come to me to ask for forgiveness
140. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to feel, to desire to know that my mother is inthe house, and that she is ready to take care of me whatever happens to me
141. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel assured when i heard dishes being done in the house
142. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel assured and comfortable when i knew that someone was in the house and that i wasn’t alone
143. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having my mother in my life
144. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i can’t assure myself through standing as self-assurity
145. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want my mother to be close around me sot hat i can feel like i am taken care of and like nothing bad can happen to me