Organic robot

Hello all you unknown readers out there. I am writing this blog as much for you as I am doing for myself. As this is my point of self-support and stability. These dears words placed infront of me as black upon white. The polarity of the physical as black and white allowing me to create symbols in which I am enjoying myself and fine-tuning my self-expression. Re-directing and re-creating the patterns which I have become.

Today I studied the entire day. Man I enjoy studying exstensively. I enjoy thinking about becoming better. I enjoy actually becoming better at what it is that I am doing. I enjoy understanding new things. That is what I am pushing to do with my mathematic, and my reading skills. I am pushing myself beyond the ideas I have created about myself as to what I am capable of and what I am not capable. And I am capable of so much more. And the more I am applying myself, the easier it becomes to sit down and study. And the more time I am putting down into studying.

Instead of doing music I've now found myself to study. I also know that it's nessecary for me to study this much if I am going to have a chance at clearing the test that comes later this year. If I can get a good result at the test now. It will be of much benefit. And if I am lucky, I will be able to go to law school at this winter. And simply jump off this school and continue directly to law school. Though I am doubting that possibility. Because this test is very hard. But I am going to push myself to get a good grade in this text.

I am actually enjoying this oppurtunity to do this test. Because this test is not the average test. It's a real fucking hard test that takes time, dedication, patiance and discipline to be able to have a chance at getting a good grade in. And this is what i've realized and what I am currently applying. And I will continue to apply so until I am satisfied that I will be able to handle all parts of this test with ease and within the given time of the test. And there are some specific things I will have to push myself within to be able to do. Which I am already in the movement of doing for myself.

I have actually done a vlog. Or I have also done a vlog today. It was about a week since I did my last vlog. And i've placed down the time intervall between vlogs is fitting if it is about one week. And my blog is naturally everyday. And placing my time as such I have much to do. Yet not to much, so I become tired. I have just the right amount of much to do.

What is there more to write about. I had a small situation with a guy here at dinner. It was a personality I entered for some seconds. It was a situation where he asked me if I would be afraid if a bird flew into my. I said I didn't know. And that i wouldn't be scared if I saw it before. And then something was said and I asked, in a way. But wouldn't I pity the bird was asked. To which I answered what does pitying the bird has to do with being afraid of the bird. Which I noticed was something that I said from a starting point of argument and wanting to be right. Which naturally then played out as the guy became somewhat also drawn into this energy.

So, i've noticed how dumb people are recently. I can really see that people are but organic robots. Because there is no actual expression taking place within people. Of challenging reality. Everyone have accepted reality as real and as what it should actually be like. And that is a quality of a robot. To have no ability to create own judgements, or own observations and to take actions based upon these observations. And that is what I observe within people. A ignorance towards the world. A ignorance towards how the world functions. Not actually a ignorance. It's actually only a question of not knowing. Ignorance is deliberately avoiding information. People here don't actually realize and know what is going on in this world, and how this reality actualy functions. And what a disgrace it is that reality actually functions this way.

It is strange that reality can keep on going as it is going with so much human casualities being allowed. It's like people close their eyes. Or have had blind-folds put infront of their faces where they don't see the current status of reality at all. It's like reality is simply accepted because everyone else is accepting reality as it is. So it's fascinating that there exist no words of insight, or anger, or disgust towards this system as it exist. I would have expected that.

I did go through that with some people. But in very few cases this insight and disgust, this anger, was actually taken to it's next level. Where you live the correction into this world. Starting with yourself. And then expanding yourself into the rest of the world.

So that is my day and what i've seen. Thanks.