Self-support

So waking up today. I didn’t really want to wake up. Though I was quite calm and relaxed as I was lying in my bed. After that I went to eat breakfast. And I was very much calm. Though I participated in all these thoughts of where to look. And I kind it made it a big thing for myself. And I judged myself for doing that and then felt pretty shitty. THough it wasn’t a big shitty feeling. I could kind relax and do my thing.

And then I sat down to eat with some people. And one of the girls from the class came and sit with me. I noticed that I tried to bring something up to speak about with her. And I noticed that I actually went into personalities of niceness with her. Where I wanted to be interessted in her offers and what she said. So it was a very subtle and deceptive personality I entered with her.
The problem with not having anything to say to people. And then going into the mind to find something out to say seems to be re-occuring. Or it is re-occuring. And I don’t know what it stems from. In common sense I see that it is a lack of self-acceptance, and a lack of self-appreciation. Because at some points there is nothing to be said, and nothing to be shared. And with some people these types of enjoyable conversations simply won’t open. The reason is. That the conversation must be expressed from two ways. It’s not possible with a one sided conversation.

So it’s interessting to see who I am with people. This particular day my friend Fanny mentioned something about how I looked. Coosy she said. I went into a reaction of fear and extreme physical discomfort. Which I found quite interessting. I was very helpless to this reaction and it showed me that there is still tons to work with in relation to people, in relation to fear and physical discomfort. But just during these three, or four days, as I have decided to specifically focus upon this one point I have made major progressions. Though I want to go faster. But I am not going to judge myself. I’ll simply see all dishonesties that come up as gifts and oppurtunities for me to correct myself and live self-honesty. I will have fun and not go down upon myself.
So it was interessting to be ignored also. As I sat and discussed a girl was talk with me from the other side of the table. And she was never looking at me as she spoked. She asked a question to me and then she looked away. It was fascinating. I was ignored, my presence was ignored by the entire table. And I mean that felt a bit uncomfortable. Because I didn’t really know how to be within such a experience of not existing. And I took it personal. I wonder why I don’t exist to people. Why it is that I am not see by people. It doesn’t really botherm e. It’s just strange that in some situations I simply cease to exist to people and become nothing but air.

So, it was cool. In the morning i meet Viktoria, which I didn’t remember the name upon. Which I experienced a slight experience of fear towards. And then I moved on. And I noticed that Lukas felt uncomfortable in his body. As he was moving himself forward in very jerky movements. I also became that uncomfort somewhat. Though it’s four hundred times better than it was before. And I am fucking grateful for forgiveness which have allowed me to realize that it’s not nessecary to exist in fear all the time.

When I am with people I often feel like I am getting these threating looks. Like people are saying to me that I am coming into their territory in which I have nothing to do. I feel like I am sometimes breaking the laws of other people. And it’a a specific type of look that I react towards. When people look at me almost angrily as I am simply expressing myself here.
So it’s been fascinating today to see how I am attempting to fit in with people and in their conversations. Yet I am ignored. That is what I am. I am ignored as I speak. Nobody looks at me. And I don’t understand why. Or that was the case in one small situation. And it simply shows me that I am still wanting to have recognition. Which is in essence limitation. Because obviously I want a positive recognition and not a negative one. And thus I am attempting to be in a certain way that will bring this positive recognitions out. And in the end I am actually limiting myself to only exist as the picture I believe people want to see.
So Fanny, I can’t express myself with her. I can’t get a conversation flowing with her. Maybe I shouldn’t try even. I feel like there is nothing to express with her. Like there is nothing of interest that I want to share with her. So I simplys it beside her and I search in my mind for questions that I could ask her. But I really don’t want to do it. And thus I create this discomfort within me when there is just silence and there is no will. No desire to speak and share myself. Because I want there to be something to speak about, and something to share. But there is nothing.

It’s fascinating though how calm I have become these last days of self-forgiveness. I don’t understand why I was so stupid as to not see that the anxiety I experienced is clearly my priority point. And that it should be my main focus. But now i’ve done so and I am on my way to locating and transcending all the small points, and refractions of fear.

So anyway, having relationships with no fear is interessting. Because almost everyone want, and havet hese social masks they where. Thus they attempt to come towards you and bring you into this social arena. Where you are behaving a certain way and expressing a certain resonance, a certain feeling. Now it’s interessting because this social arena is created and exists only because of fear. And when there is no more fear the social arena because but a stupid game that there is no reason to play.
And instead I meet the humans behind the games. Which are the people that are here. Which I like much more. And in that I am here as the moment much more. I am not creating relationships with ideas of future, with ideas of past, I am simply here and I am expressing myself with what is here. I don’t need any friend, I don’t need any relationship as I am walking my life totally and completely alone. Which makes life and the experience of living much more like a adventure and much more fun. Man, fear of death is the biggest limitation there is. The only fun way to live is as if you where going to die each day. I don’t want to live forever. I want to die. I want to die horribly. In real fucking pain. Most prefarably several days of agany and pain. And lot’s of blood. Much screaming. And then finally death. Just so I get the fear out of having such an experience.
Okay, so anyway. I’ve realized that most of the relationships that are existent and the way they are existing is through fear. And now when I am getting all fear out of me I see the lie of all relationships. But I am still holding on to much fear and that is what I will deal with in todays Self-forgiveness. And today I am aiming at 200 self-forgiveness lines.

1. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear being called cosy in a group of people
2. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to go into fear and anxiety when i am with a group of people in fear that i won’t know how to move myself and express myself in the next moment
3. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that i won’t have anything to say
4. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to experience fear and discomfort when someone speaks about me
5. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear speaking to and interacting with fanny
6. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that i am contributing a feeling of negativity
7. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear bieng a negative person
8. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear giving others negative energy
9. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame and judge myself and believe that i am responsible for making others feel nagative
10. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear being seen as negative
11. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel fear and uncomfort towards moving myself around with other people
12. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear waiting upon another
13. I forgive myyself that i have accepted adn allowed myself to fear that people will think that i am going to close to them
14. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear being ignored by people
15. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that girls will think that i am coming to close to them and going into their personal space
16. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear going into someones personal space in fear that they will become angry or uncomfortable
17. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having anything to speak about with fanny
18. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear saying no and not following with fanny to a coffe shop
19. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to play games with fanny where i am compromising myself and attempting to find a subject to speak about
20. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fea rnot being liked by fanny
21. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear when Finland is speaking
22. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear sitting by a table where people are speaking in fear of who i am going to look at, where i am going to look, and if i am should speakl
23. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to start to fear how i should express myself
24. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel uncomfortable towards speaking with viktoria
25. I forgive myslef htat i have accepted and allowed myself to fear not remembering viktorias name
26. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that viktoria is going to become angry at me or feel hurt i ask for her name
27. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear looking at people that are approaching the table, in fear that people will think that i am looking to much and that i am being rude and uncomfortable
28. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear being uncomfortable
29. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear being uncomfortable to others
30. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being liked and valued as a group member that makes everyone comfortable
31. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to make everyone comfortable in the desire to be liked by everyone and have many friends
32. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowd myself to fear when someone comes into the computer hall
33. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear being looked in my back
34. I forgive myself that i have acepted and allowed myself to fear being looked at without knowing it
35. I forgive myself that i have accepted nad allowed myself to fear that i am going to do something that others see as repulsive and bad when they are looking at me
36. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having knowledge if someone looks at me or doesn’t look at me
37. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear when the presence of another being comes into my moment
38. I forgive myself that i have accepted an dallowed myself to fear angering another being
39. I forgive myslef htat i have accepted and allowed myself to fear watching videos on my computer that others will see as stupid, weird
40. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that people won’t like what i am playing on the computer
41. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that people will ask me to turn down the volume because it’s to loud
42. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear having the volume on when i play clips on my computer in fear that anyone is going to become angry at me for that
43. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear when i am picking things in the line and someone else is standing behind me, or wants also to pick things, in fear of being to slow, in fear of angering or making the other being look angrily and resentfully towards me
44. I forgive myself that i have accepted adn allowed myself to fear drawing myself upon others anger and frustration
45. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that others are going to become angry at me
46. I forgive myself that i have accepte dand allowed myself to feel afraid of moving myself, as my hands, as my body infront of people, doing tasks that many are looking at me while i am doing
47. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel afraid of taking my hands out of my pockets infront of people
48. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that my hands will touch or bounce into a girls private parts, the but, the pussy or the breasts
49. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear accidently touching another
50. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that another will repulse, and feel like i have overstepped my boundries, and that i am being sexist
51. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define touching as something personal, and intimate, that can only be done with people you know
52. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear being rejected or making people angry when i touch them
53. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear touching my mother
54. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for giving my mother a massage from a starting point of self-dishonesty
55. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear fear kissing fanny
56. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to wish and desire to kiss fanny
57. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to wish and desire to fuck fanny
58. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to wish and desire to grab R tighs and follow with my hand until i reach her pussy
59. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to squuze the thighs of R as I fuck her, and feel her soft skin, and her firm bodily texture and structure
60. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become aroused by seeing R’s picture perfect skin, and picture perfect legs, that have the picture perfect brown skin, and that look firm
61. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become aroused when i feel soft skin
62. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to wish and desire that anna would be more beautiful and not as ugly
63. I forgive myself that i ahve accepted and allowed myself to wish and desire that anna would look more like R
64. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to fuck adn have sex with a petite girl, in the desire to have full physical control over a girls body
65. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be able to throw around a girl and have sex with a girl, and physically abuse a girl as I have sex with her
66. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to make a girl sweat and scream as i fuck her hard from behind
67. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become aroused by a picture of a girl standing on all fours, being fucked from behind hard, having her motuh open as a sign of pleasure, and high sensual activity, as she places her hands on the wall infront of her as a support, as she gets fucked heavily
68. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to dream about fucking R this way
69. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to dream about sexual relationships with girls
70. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear when I am meeting people in the morning
71. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear not holding up the door to people in the morning
72. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that people will become angry, and blame me, because i didn’t held the door for them
73. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it’s bad to slam the door shut in someones face
74. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am going to hell for such an action
75. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that people will look after me with a angry face, and later speak about me angrily with their friends and their close ones
76. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear not making people happy, smiling, and satisfied
77. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to go into a totalt fear and energy in conflict
78. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to loose all my presence of breath in a conflict
79. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that everyone is going to dislike me
80. I forgive myself that i have acceptd and allowed myself to fear not knwing anyone and not having anyone to speak with
81. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear being loneley
82. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear being alone
83. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear only having myself to rely on and be with for eternity
84. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having the acceptance and recognition from others
85. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear spending eternity with myself in darkness
86. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear F
87. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear not getting attention by J
88. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being spoken to, and not being looked at
89. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear being ignored and not getting any attention from anyone, not being seen by anyone
90. I forgive myself that i have accepted nad allowed myself to fear when i am being argued with by many people
91. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear being direct towards someone that is arguing and disagreeing with me
92. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear how i should speak and behave when someone is disagreeing with me
93. I forgive myself that i have accepted adn allowed myself to believe that disagreements and conflicts are bad
94. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to due to my heraditory fear and judge conflicts and disagreements as bad
95. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear going to hell and being judged by god if i participate in disagreements and conflicts
96. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear being disliked by everyone if i am direct
97. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear being disliked by everyone if i am not nice
98. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being loved by everyone if i am not nice
99. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being loved
100. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect feelings, and various ideas of value, and emotions to the word love
101. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am going to hell for such an action
102. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i can go to hell when i die
103. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear going to hell
104. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear doing something that society considers bad in fear that i am going to hell
105. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that nobody will like me in this life in fear that i am going to hell because of that
106. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to unconciously believe that there is a hell and a heaven
107. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to unconciously accept the belief that there is a devil, and that there is a god, and that there is any superior entity controlling and directing my life
108. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become ingrained with the soul construct
109. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become controlled by the soul construct
110. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being a aprt of this creation
111. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to allow myself to become enslaved and controlled
112. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become powerless and give my power away to systems
113. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create the belief and idea that there is a heaven and a hell
114. I forgive myself that i have accepted adn allowed myself to fear doing what i want to do in life in fear that i will go to hell
115. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear saying what i want to say in life in fear that i will go to hell
116. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear not following the rules and principles of society and those who went before me in fear that i will go to hell
117. I forgive myself that i have accepted allowed myself to believe that there is a god
118. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that i am making god angry at me
119. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear not pleasing god in fear of being punished by god
120. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear being denied heaven when i die
121. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear being denied life when i die
122. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear being deleted from existence because i’ve been bad and not follow the rules and regulations of society and those who went before me
123. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear self-empowerment
124. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am not allowed to empower myself
125. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is my role to existence as a servant to god, and that i am now allowed to stand up equal to god and empower mysefl
126. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i must be a servant in this life because i am inferior and less than god
127. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that god is superior to me
128. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that god can control and influence me
129. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it’s not right to empower myself and live in self-honesty where i write and define this world according to my own insights
130. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am not smart enough, wise enough, to live by my own words and insights
131. I forgive myself that i have accepte dand allowed myself to believe that i need a god to live and express myself
132. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i can’t trust myself but only people with certain positions in the matrix
133. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am inferior to epople in the matrix because i don’t hold such a high-ranked position
134. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist in inferiorty and in the belief that i am as a human being not perfect, but flawed, and that i must spend my entire life to look at and follow those apperantly more than me
135. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as inferiorty
136. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that heaven is more pwerful than earth
137. I forgive myself that i have acceåted and allowed myself to believe that i as a human-being is insignificant and unimportant in reality, in life
138. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am not worthy in comparison to the rest of the universe
139. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the universe is seperate from me and bigger than me
140. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it doesn’t matter what i live, or where i stand, in the belief that i am only one human-being and thereby insignificant
141. I forgive myself htat i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i as a human-being can’t direct myself and see what is best for all because i am apperantly inferior
142. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear directing myself and empowering myself and realizing that i am not limited and i am not inferior in anyway
143. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear realizing what actually might be possible in this reality
144. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear realizing that i don’t have any limitations, in fear that i am going to fuck up, and fuck this reality up, due to me expressing myself in a way that destroys the entire reality
145. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that destruction is bad
146. I forgive myself that i have accepted and llowed myself to fear destruction
147. I forgive myself that i have accepted adn allowed myself to believe that i must judge myself for destroying, ruining, and breaking things
148. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it’s better to create, produce than to destroy, ruin and break
149. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear crushing things and breaking down this reality
150. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i don’t know what to do or how to do it because i am only a human being
151. I forgive myself htat i have accepte dand allowed myself to become fooled to believe that i am in anyway limited
152. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am in anyway restricted and controlled
153. I forgive myself that i have accepted adna llowed myself to fear standing up and realizing what i am actually capable of
154. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear realizing that what i thought was me was nothing but a lie
155. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear realizing that my entire life has been a life lived within inferiorty and self-limitation
156. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am not capable of speaking to people that i can’t see with my eyes
157. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am not capable of moving myself, teleporting myself in this reality
158. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am seperate in anyway from this reality
159. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am inferior and a victim to this reality
160. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am not responsible for this reality
161. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am inferior and limited in the context of creation and existence in it’s enterity in the belief taht i am just a small human-being, with a small mind, and that i can’t possibly understand or realize what is going on here
162. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear facing my thoughts
163. I forgive myself that i have accepted nad allowed myself to fear facing myself
164. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear stopping myself
165. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear not anymore existing as a mind conciousness system
166. I forgive myself that i have accepted anda llowed myself to fear breathing and letting go of everything that i have ever known
167. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear letting go of my mind
168. I forgive myself that i have accepted adn allowed myself to define myself according to my mind and believe that if i am to stop my mind i will dissepear
169. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am my mind
170. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myslef ot believe that i can’t move myself and express myself without my mind
171. I forgive myself that i have accepted anda llowed myself to believe that i can’t enjoy myself without my mind
172. I forgive myself htat i have accepte dan dallowed myslef to believe that i can’t interact, communicate and know where i am, how i am, who i am, without my mind
173. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if the mind goes away i will also go away
174. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become dependent upon my mind to exist and live
175. I forgive myself that i have accepte dand allowed myself to believe that i must have my mind to be able to know how i am to express myself and live in each moment
176. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i must know anything
177. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear not anymore having any knowledge
178. I forgive myself that i have accepte dna dallowed myself to fear not anymore having a past or a future to direct myself in relation to
179. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to speak in my mind anymore
180. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowd myself to fear not anymore being able to place myself in reality, in comparison to other people
181. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to worry about money anymore
182. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to create personalities and emotions anymore
183. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear dissepearing
184. I forgive myself htat i have accepte dand allowed myself to fear not knowing who i am
185. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i know who i am through my mind
186. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear becoming, retarded, crazy, and loosing all self-control if i give up my mind
187. I forgive myself htat i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i need my mind to be able to survive and express and move myself
188. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the mind is needed
189. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear not anymore having the ability to create pictures in my mind
190. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear being completly empty
191. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear total, endless darkness
192. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear endlessness
193. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear eternity
194. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to attpemt to understand eternety and endlessness with my mind
195. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear my parents dying, to fear myself dying, and existing in eternity in total darkness and blackness
196. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear loosing this picture colour world
197. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to need pictures to define who i am
198. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to need pictures to live and express myself
199. I forgive myself that i have accepterd and allowed myself to need pictures to enjoy myself
200. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to need pictures to let go and express myself
I am here
I am self-acceptance
I see self-freedom
I see self-expression
I see self-trust
I see self-reliance
I see self-dignity
I see self-pride
I see self-enjoyment
I see self-love
I see self-sexuality
I see self-presence
I see self-stability
I see here